Read my world

(By-Harshit) I want you to read my World, An essence of you and me in some meaningful words. Read some ballads here for world, Sometime you'll see you are also in my words. I want you to read my World, Free verse I'm trying to singing I know its in complete, But still it kind of fits, you'll read & that's all. Put your eyes on, it's not my goal, it's not about someone, It's white as snow and dark as coal, when you read it you'll complete it all. I want you to read my World, Words here are in an incomplete melody, It may be Folk, pop, RnB or rock all are songs & my thoughts, If Sometimes my words hurts you for that I'm sorry, I am not a poet and I know it because I never write any poems.

(By-Harshit) I remember the pain I've been through, the way I was abused, I was barely of 10 my hands were tied behind my back and to my pain there is still no end, My mumma said, "said streets are safe, go and play" but that day destiny played well, now I don't believe world, people says I'm a curse untouchable, it's just a cruel world, Tell me was it my fault that I was raped by  familiar faces, tears like loop falls again and again, it is harsh to hearing what they says, since childhood their swearing keeps on changing, but pain is fix like pillars, A Single blow fucked my life I'm too tired to myself in mirror again, It hurts more and more when I remember how I was kicked out by friend's Dad he said," I should not be living" Time gives more scars than I've got when I was brutally beaten, I can't see myself it's too dark here, it feels too much for a child who'd lost his smile, people can  say anything they want I'

(By-Harshit) Would it be easy for a bud to grow without water, would it be easy for infant to live without his mother, Tell me why we lost things that matters us most, I Know change is inventiable but it always leaves me shattered, I'm scared yeah, our time is changing, OH running from this changing time, it's giving me pain I'm trying to relive those stolen moments, I'll be honest I always want to walk on these same roads again, on these same road again, Deep in oceans some ships had drowned to the place even darker than night, far in universe black holes traveling at speed of light, all thing are signs of changing time they say I'll be truly Happy when I'll die, Is it right? I'm singing about changing time at funeral, sage man is dead god bless his soul, give peace to his children, a life is born in hospital infront, newborn is crying he is going to die, Death is coming for him but I'm in middle of him and that dead person, Why Do I always need

Choose love, be a lover, not a culprit and a murderer, You'll be infront of god one day, then you'll know what's terror. Are they human? They turned joy into screams, lights into explosion, Tears & blood everywhere, they did all in name of religion, no they are not human. No religion kills innocent, no creed Of god sheds blood of children, We have to play our roles find yours, killing just defy your mother's womb. We all are on way to same place,  walking on different paths to reach there, But we all are same first a human then comes our religion, be afraid killers and culprits won't be spared. (By-Harshit)

Oh I'll perform on this stage, even if I do crawl but still, I'll take leap of fate as dancer, even with my stitched mouth I'll make my audience laugh as joker, I'll perform on this stage. Too cold here nobody front of me all are playing role given to them, no help, they are praying for my role to end, A poet performing her love poetry in front of me, do I love her? No because she is just performing her role no, just nothing to love on this stage, oh but I'll perform on this stage I don't want to leave this stage in middle, I want my name on those stars, I'll leap for my life, it's not my time to leave. People passed their performance to me, my family my mother was here, she passed her role to me ,she is falling I'm crying, watching her but I'll perform here. Oh I'll perform on this stage, even if I do crawl but still I need something who can hold me, I feel to pain but still I'll perform my role passed on to me, I know end is near.

(By-Harshit) You've made me cry, tell me why, You'd put those lies on me. I'm here with these empty wall, Can't stand on my own, fallen and writing our stories. You said you don't love me then, why your eyes still wet when you're away with her. Isn't she same, you told me you never gonna leave me for her, Send my love to your new lover hope she don't get hurt. You've ever just made me cry and put those lies, I never need you like I do right now but Know It's over. I need to move on some how, You never put your hands off me, I'm here in this rain still crying on my love.

(By-Harshit) Spending mornings and smoking night it's too stress now, Now we're young yeah, why we are young yeah. Liquor falling and bae paying mind games and all time oh we're young yeah, Our child time now its over, back then we had fun, now life is just a competition. Are you happy? Now I'm sad yeah, it's hard to remember those sweet times, Playing games in ground not with mind oh, pulling each other through bags, we were kids then now we're young yeah. We had fights to be class monitor, taking stars on cheeks, paying weird games, We were silly nah. Spending summer in freinds house on birthday wearing special dress and giving chocolate to freinds oh, It's last year of school then it all will be over, when we get young yeah? Sweet days now are gone (aye), it no matter you if say you don't wanna talk (no), I know you still wanna talk about childhood days, now we at peak oh falling in sand of changing time oh. We are one yeah, we are young

(By-Harshit) She is your friend, not always your lover, If call her a bitch then what you say to your mother (isn't she same). You talking about she come to you and now she is a boujee, A bad girl who just crawl in, for her nights and money (You ain't a man). You forget the times when she was there and spent hours talking, About your heart and now she is digger (this ain't never be true). All things become worst because boy you just shit in, If you were a man then you could understand what's her meaning. (you just can't understand) **(Respect girls never abuse them your mother is also a lady)

( By-Harshit ) Walking in nights, running in days we live for our dreams but we are in chase, Our dreams are like feathers when they fall form sky everyone want to snatch it, just for their fake pride. We are here in a competition that is meaning less, everybody just want to outshine others, For our life, we struggle too much  some people want to break our dreams without any reason. Even If we could bribe the door  next to our way to  that bright light, still some would blow off others light, Tell them that their end is near, they are not so far away from hell. Many things around us which makes life more fuss, just try not to worry you'll prove yourself oneday, Take what you'll need and be on your way to your dreams and stop crying yourself out. Success isn't  bound to percentile, many are there in this sheep walk, With so much money but, if nobody know about thee, 9-5 jobs family screaming what is meaning of this? If I'm here with the song I've wrote no m

How can you find yourself in a dark room, when you can't find your friends fears , his dull sun present on his face.

See here in my face, my eyes, not red, no tears, my mistake. I know you can relate.

Reasons I've made to be here ,not form tears, but by believing in cheer's.

Moaning in nights, reaching through skies, wish to be forever with you till comes divine.

Whenever someone is still thinking of you, that place is your home

(By-Harshit) Tell me those words that you said before, cause your smile feels too much and I'm standing alone. Amanda You say you're not perfect but that is biggest lie, Just see yourself form my vision and then you'll realize. Tell me those words that you said before, Why don't you reply my message, even if you read them all, Are you playing games or did I break your soul? Amanda, I'm shattered in pieces but your eyeliner still keeping me low. If you want to go, then just leave, I don't understand what are you waiting for? your smile feels too much and I'm standing alone, I'm living on edge and I might even fall, Do you still know nothing or are making me fool. Oh I'm living on word you told me year before, Amanda, you are giving me hope, I want see you more. Tell me those words that you said before, cause your smile feels too much and I'm standing alone.

(By-Harshit) I thought if I talk to her she would mind, When I was talking to her, she put senses back in my life. I found myself like I wasn't used be she taught me how to be somebody, With the Thoughts she gave to me. I used her like a song of life, And listen to her in my ups and downs. We moved further than I thought we could, She believes in me, even more than I do. And I was loved by her and it never happened to me, Right in front of me, all I sensed was she. She cared so much than I could do, I understand what is meaning of women with the things she do. I found her love like it was made for me, We could see truth through each other eyes and I can say love is her define.

(By-Harshit) We could live here with liberty, But there are many barriers in our life which changes our destiny. I was living too happily with my 10th marks and my report card, They told me, I've done something which, can tear up the sky. I'm feels like a failure, when I see others, they are too far to reach, there is too much competition. Will anyone of you wait for me, in this spot of life there no friends nor any friendship. Now all I can do is just run, to catch up them, my feet are bleeding so fast, will I be really happy, if could catch them at last? Tell me now where is my place, because I'm feeling pain in the space. Now my teachers say, study 12 hours a day or you'll be fail, When I've wrote my best exam I didn't know that it will be gonna like this, Why world just see percentage? My fears that I've seen before exam are now real, they are haunting me, Is my end near? Why it's my fate, my aim is unclear, even if nail my boards, but s

(By-Harshit) No I don't wanna stalker he could be any guy who is following me, At social site, browsing my name in his contact list hides he could be anywhere and anybody. He! He could be anywhere around trying to peep at me, Form window behind or in my best friend's life thinking he can anywhere touch me. He could be thinking like I'll love him like I do my lover or I'll will be his wife  and can be just any guy whom I talked lately, No I don't wanna give him my number nor I wanna spend my time with him and  don't wanna get carried with his money. No I don't wanna sadist advice say I'm showing attitude towards him, Or fake people cries howling I'm bitching him for new guy with some money. Oh no some old might be blaming me say it's due to my clothing and lifestyle which I should change immediately, No I don't gonna change my life No It's not problem with my style its about his cheap Mind & your poor ideology. No it's

(By-Harshit) Stop looking for love, you're thinking about it all day, Love will just break your heart, you can reach to stars someday. Just listen to your brain, your clothes will not take you to her, Shining light that won't let you sleep, is she your only dream. Stop wasting time, live more your life, which you are loosing by going before her, Because she isn't all that you'll need, make your dreams real and they will never leave you someday. Look up see those bird, they always fly alone, because they know love will give them pain, Stop crying for her she doesn't understand your tears, shed them for your hardwork instead. Folk man telling me their love stories in falling moon light, They moved from their love for  work and now they are here in peace. If you're in love then, welcome this is your last show, Hope you'll be alright ,when she'll go, somewhere so far away from you.

Words and Me :- I can see you even without my eyes, when I touch your smile I can describe you better, than with my eyes.

(By-Harshit) We've been learning form books about gods and their tales, The science and theories of equilence. Doing tons of research on earth and it's neighbours, But in morning we can't even get our socks and wallets. When we tensed all time and cried about our life and failures, Nobody could ever comfort us except our parents. They were always superheroes who taught what are humans, Mother and father both made us stand on our feets & gave the lives with comforts. What we have now is due to their efforts, they remain for us in our journey, Even when we lit our first cigarette they taught us with serenity. My parents understand me My mum and daddy, Little bit scold me but if I need they could buy me things of big money. They believe in more than I do,  it  makes me happy but you can't have them, Because they are exclusive to me they supports me and I love them.

(By-Harshit) I got eight days off in month's end I've walked to home oh my home, were I've run, fell and lived all nights there I feel more. I've always been away form my own place because I'm now looking to work, my parents who had moved to me in city & I'm forward to be family man, here my home is just left behind with an orchard, I wish my kids will see this old place in future. No one is here with me but feel them here talking to me and spending time together these four wall have seen me more than anyone. I've met my friends here we ran errands together, I wish we stayed same forever this place gave us our  names I can feel those days back when we were younger and study in my orchard. When I was teenager I went to clubs smoked first found someone whom I love now getting married to her next month. I've moved so far in my life but this place stood here now very old but it's in my heart it's still beautiful and I wanna live here more a

(By-Harshit) I choose to fight for me and life that is adore by thee, and those who belive in me. I might not be highly intelligent they say it's matter of quotient but it's wrong, Dearie when you'll move and find problems that you can't solve because they are different from what solve in subjects. They called me genius though I've proved it to some extent but, Now I feel shortfall being stoped at a spot. Now it's not my chance to shine bright but, I won't feel surpassed, I'll face it by saying "bring it on" and show  them what I'm made of. People like me who move slowly often fall behind them even though we have potential, Like I met a girl this year listen songs same as me too lively and intellectual. Bit lacking behind others say her life is dragging it pains to much, "Friend don't worry about pain you feel for your future" I said to her. We can make the things goes safe by our hardwork and prove to those who s

(By-Harshit) Loving is here in the air we breathe love time to time, Life is rhyme with girl who becomes sun and shine. My friends have girls, with some breakups, and others singing with their future brides, I don't know much about girls and love, I don't have girl to hold hands. Once I've had, a girl in my head, saw her in red, she was one I understand, I went for talk, but got scold and she laughed,she was my rhyme at 7 when both were young and short. Ages past time flew fast, friends teased me from her name and I just blushed so far, At age of 10 I lost her when, she moved to place too far, I don't remember her face her shine her age just name of my rhyme which was her. Now I've changed too dumb to get a girl, others have many but don't have who will be sunshine, After many years now I've met a girl form eastern tribe, she is light, felt I've  got my rhyme. When I talk to her, she was one same interests as mine, light gave me rhyme and chan

(By-Harshit) I've killed my mind in that pain , I've been a child with pure innocence, But , I've lost everything on which I've bid. I was to blind to foresee anything , any consequence, but I'd made my move, tore him to peices, I've killed him in church, I'm no human to cared ,I've killed him in church, I won't be spared. Lost my senses,I was just defending never wanted that to happen, no weapon tore down him bare handed, In that Church, infront of Christ, I've turned to ghoul, those candle, that books and angle witness my rage like a beast out of cage. Blood fallen, my hands were red, I was mad, graves howled, moon went red, that was end, I ended up killing him in that holy place, he died his blood was on ground, I was cursed hound, I slurped blood ate flesh of dead. Christ felt filth on me, he cried that I'll die horribly, will go to hell and shed tears of blood, It changed me I'm nothing to be cared of, I've nothing to

By-Harshit Till we are together, we'll be always thinking, But what would happen when we'd separate away? Walking and holding hands in, looking at each other's faces, We feel love in our spaces, just living these moments and the days. We see truth in each other's eyes spreading love in all those places, where we make love all day. Losing each other is just a fear, darling till the time I'm here, we won't be losing anyway. So just grab me to feel my truth for thee, It's gonna hurt a bit but we won't hurry and you'll feel love around your waist. Life is beautiful and complicated, but, we'll learn how to live it right, Baby even if it's complicated , together we'll just make it because with you, I feel Alive. You are the reason I've millions of dreams and you are all of them, You're picture of perfection and darling together we are more perfect.

(By-Harshit) Oh I love you but, you never loved me, all my patience ,your time already ended, You can't hide, oh love you just can't die, you just gonna cry cry cry! . Darling were you're hiding, you'll be eaten tonight, You'll choped, pierced, coked tonight but, love I won't let you die. You'll be loved , you'll scream and beg to die but won't even able to cry tonight, You were my love but you didn't understand,now I'll chew untill your end. My Love, are you there or are here , just why are making me angry & despair, You can't hide, oh love you just can't die, even if you love me now I don't care. Run, just run like hell, baby in this chase already many lost you won't be spared, Tonight you'll be mine ,in my bed, I wanted to be married but, you fall for them. You'll be crushed, tasted and pained ,no darling it's not abuse but it's my assault for your rebel. Red, Red,Red! did you feel that it

(By -Harshit) I'm Breathing in , I'm giving it out, loosing life with that pipe I'm smoking weed out. Oh I need it, I'm incomplete without smoking that weed, I feel it, Smoke flame my eyes, smoke weed what happened to my life. That illusion covers me , holding it in hand I thinking about, That I'm not  leaving it , neither my body is moving in just siting here I'm loosing out. I know it's just killing me, I'm even leaving my soul , my life , I'm lying here and smoking out. Here crying & tripping in , why it's just my destiny, I feel that yearning ,my slavery , that's why I'm dying for smoking out. I'm too high  now, can't sense if it's day or night, Feeling loosing very things ,helpless and screaming out , hell why I'm smoking out. I'm Breathing in , I'm giving it out, loosing life with that pipe I'm smoking weed out. *(It's my request and even our responsibility to save our fellow mates f

(By- H) I'm a clod with grief and smile, I dream to reach far a high.., Never think before trying and ends up falling behind., I think ,imagine and see world's demeanour.., But can't express my fancy, don't have vouble nature.., My mind stuck with the blues I listen, I feel and care for people with me but how to start with them is question.., I'm gross and with my much not needed competition.., I've just ruined my social world and connections.., I try to laugh,sit,talk with people in both fun and pain.., But I don't know to react and just can't make bonds with them., Friends who raised me I felt loosing them.., I've changed,I don't talk and and even don't know how cope with them..., I'm gross,bore and just can't even achieve scores.., Just disappoint people & parents , kill even end their hopes..,

( By -H) I felt both peace and darkness filling my heart, Darkness gives revenge in life but, peace protects us form falling in dark.,., My journey wasn't cruel but neither easy, Like others I've failed , and felt life was my enemy.,., My Birth Started with beth, God's messages & religion  clash, Didn't want them soo faced folk's wrath.,., At age of eight didn't want diety & Rebelled, Beaten up to accepct and stiff, my Life was helled.,., Stepped as teen with no home, no bonds and fears, Worked to eat, lived for self to prove what I was & what I had.,., Hailed by both love and help from people I never met, Created reasons for others to trust me & made bonds with them,.,., In twenties I was young for world but adult to understand it's beauty, Pain kills us like it killed me but, bonds and sharing get us divine peace.,., I felt both peace and darkness filling my heart, Darkness gives guilt in life but, peace protects us form